birthday week

oh here i go again rambling about nothing really. well come thursday (3 sep 2009) this week i'll be celebrating yet another birthday, by that day i would have been breathing and living on this earth for about a quarter of a century. i put it that way because i feel old, like vampire old haha i've been watching too much true blood these days.

i hate that i'm becoming more and more defeatist in my outlook. gone were the days when i was full of ambition, i actually believed that i was capable of doing anything. well those days are over, now i'm just living day by day hoping that i'll survive and get by. *hingang malalim*

anyway mapapalaban na naman tayo sa matinding gastos this week, i'll have an excuse to buy myself something nice bilang birthday gift ko sa sarili ko haha! i'm thinking of buying a holga camera, tingnan natin! at malamang sa malamang nyan maraming tao na naman ang hihirit ng libre nakow patay!